Today is 4th Feb 2003, GMT +8:00.

The weather out there is fine but my mood is not good. The last day for her working with me is 21st of this month. Only 17 days left. I wonder does people has ever stated a deadline for their loveship. And this reminds me from a chinese movie that star by one of the joker from Hong Kong and I quoted from him is "If there is a deadline for this love, I wish it was 10,000 light year",

How I wish she don't set a deadline to end this. And she keep mentioning to me, if I haven't went thru the ceremony with my wife on the last Dec 2002, she won't make this decision to leave me. And she say she make this decision is out of no choice.

My sadness is cannot be describe, becuase she doesn't surf net and doesn't read blog as well. Only word I can say is "very sad".
People wish me to find true love and I find it, but I can't convince her to stay with me.....

I very disappointed with myself.