Lonely ...

Now I can understand how one my of close friend feel, she was once being neglected because of her husband hanging out so many night after work. And now I having this siutation....

If I were to count, this friday nite is the third friday that she hang out with her colleague to KTV, Disco etc. Where were I ? you dun believe it that I'm at home watching TV, blogging, visit forums to EAT DRINK MAN WOMAN tok cock sing song ...all this done at home and work.

I have nothing to say, i was in wrong in the past. On the other hand, I feel myself very low and cheap. WHY ?
I earn lesser now, contribute much more lesser compare to Year 2000. Lower position much more than her....

She ? Assistant Manager with good pay, working OT (how i wish to have OT Pay as well). meeting Client, vendors ...meeting .....Wat the fuck of a degree in Commerce IT....

I really down on my luck, no close friends now ..lonely ...and I complain to sister in the office that

"I not only angry with the bitch in the office, not only lonely ...and I really have that emptiness feeling in my heart that cannot be fill."

I'm tired and frustrated but I'm not sleepy ...dun ask me to pick up a new hobby, I can't afford.

I'm really too sian.